Rainbow After Rain - Portfolio
To say that Morgan was big when she was pregnant with our first child would be an understatement. She was so big that the doula that we had to see while our doctor was out of town, a couple weeks before the due date, said that our daughter was going to be too big if we waited until the due date. She told us we should schedule a C-section.
Her voice weak after hearing the news, "Are you sure?" my wife asked.
The doula insisted she knew what she was talking about...we checked with our doctor at the next appointment the following week. He calmed our nerves reminding us of the ultrasounds that he has seen. The stress still lingered.
In some pregnancies, when a child is born their umbilical cord gets wrapped around their neck. This complication was one of my biggest fears the whole pregnancy...my fear became a reality. Once the baby came out, the cord was wrapped around her neck.
My mind instantly went back to when I had asked the doctor, only five weeks prior, what they would do in case this happened. I remembered how I had fearfully asked the doctor in that exam room, not wanting to know the response. The fear grew inside of me again, knowing that it had become a reality.
The doctor got it off, and they took her to the table to run the tests and examine her, I had so many questions - what was happening? What were they doing? Why couldn't we hold her? They had to take her to the NICU almost right away. Morgan didn't even get to touch her. We couldn't even say goodbye, because she didn't have a name yet.
We had a few names that we liked, but we just weren't sure.
When our baby girl left the room, I turned to Morgan and I said, "I think Violet should be her first name." Morgan instantly agreed, even though that name had only ever been considered a middle name. Later we both talked about how it just felt meant to be.
Violet
We found out that she had inhaled some stuff during birth, so she had to stay overnight. Morgan was discharged but we couldn't even take our new baby home. This was our first child, so it was surreal to us that this was happening. Violet wasn't able to spend her first night with her parents.
We went back early the next morning, Morgan wanted to feed Violet, so we went pretty early; all of this was happening while both of us were enrolled in school. We both missed a few classes, and I was calling into work. Violet was in the NICU for three days, and the financial stress that was putting on our family started to dawn on us. Luckily, we finally were able to take her home!
We were smiling from the mother's room all the way home. Violet was coming home. She slept very well. It was the fourth night home, she was sleeping six hours at a time. We had this perfect little baby, who gave us the biggest scare at first! Now a little angel of sleep and cuteness.
Her voice weak after hearing the news, "Are you sure?" my wife asked.
The doula insisted she knew what she was talking about...we checked with our doctor at the next appointment the following week. He calmed our nerves reminding us of the ultrasounds that he has seen. The stress still lingered.
In some pregnancies, when a child is born their umbilical cord gets wrapped around their neck. This complication was one of my biggest fears the whole pregnancy...my fear became a reality. Once the baby came out, the cord was wrapped around her neck.
My mind instantly went back to when I had asked the doctor, only five weeks prior, what they would do in case this happened. I remembered how I had fearfully asked the doctor in that exam room, not wanting to know the response. The fear grew inside of me again, knowing that it had become a reality.
The doctor got it off, and they took her to the table to run the tests and examine her, I had so many questions - what was happening? What were they doing? Why couldn't we hold her? They had to take her to the NICU almost right away. Morgan didn't even get to touch her. We couldn't even say goodbye, because she didn't have a name yet.
We had a few names that we liked, but we just weren't sure.
When our baby girl left the room, I turned to Morgan and I said, "I think Violet should be her first name." Morgan instantly agreed, even though that name had only ever been considered a middle name. Later we both talked about how it just felt meant to be.
Violet
We found out that she had inhaled some stuff during birth, so she had to stay overnight. Morgan was discharged but we couldn't even take our new baby home. This was our first child, so it was surreal to us that this was happening. Violet wasn't able to spend her first night with her parents.
We went back early the next morning, Morgan wanted to feed Violet, so we went pretty early; all of this was happening while both of us were enrolled in school. We both missed a few classes, and I was calling into work. Violet was in the NICU for three days, and the financial stress that was putting on our family started to dawn on us. Luckily, we finally were able to take her home!
We were smiling from the mother's room all the way home. Violet was coming home. She slept very well. It was the fourth night home, she was sleeping six hours at a time. We had this perfect little baby, who gave us the biggest scare at first! Now a little angel of sleep and cuteness.
I wish my little girl was a "little angel of sleep and cuteness" right now!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad everything turned out well at the end. I think you did a really good job expanding this part of the story to make it it's own! I definitely connected to it this read through in a different way than before I had our daughter. Thank you for sharing!